I am so pumped for this summer, and to witness the Living God show up and move lives out on the water! I apologize for not being at the training weekend last weekend, been kinda crazy around my house this past week. I am going to be an Uncle, in fact I was supposed to be one last weekend. That God of ours really does have a mind of his own. But today it looks like I will officially be an uncle, and am getting ready to leave for the hospital in 45 minutes or so. I am eager to see all of you again and cant wait for memorial weekend....
I have grown up in the Church my entire life, and a Lutheran one at that. If you know anything about Lutheran churches, you know that they love tradition, and I mean love it. but going to that same Holy week tradition for most of my life, you can get bet your bottom dollar that, that gets mundane really quick.
Just in the last few years as I have been having a real relationship with Jesus, and following him. I have found that this story is no longer mundane to me. In fact I actually get sick to my stomach when I read the story of Jesus on the cross and how he was spit on, mocked, and tortured brutally etc.. I get angry as well when I read this trying to fathom in my mind what kind of awful people would do this to a man who hadn't done anything wrong. I even recall conversations I have had about this with friends, where we try to tell each other what we would do if we saw this happening in front of us. Of course, I always come out looking like the hero, that beet the crap out of those guards and got Jesus down from the cross.
But then it hits me every time, and I get this awful sinking feeling, like the ground came out from under me. This is when I realize that, I am the guard who is spitting on, mocking, and torturing Jesus the King. That the day dreams I was having about defending Jesus and beating up those guards, were merely a facade. I find it interesting, how hard it is to except this for myself, that Jesus died for my sins, that my sins were and are just as bad as the guards and the rest of the people that Jesus was on the cross for.
Two phrases also stuck out to me; "But they were wrong." "But Jesus Stayed." How rad is that ! we were and are wrong and Jesus still stays with us!
This post probably makes no sense considering it came out of my head, but any who have a blessed week!
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