Answering the door

Hey guys! hope all is well! Praying for this summer! IF any of you need specific prayer as well let me know! I don''t know about you guys but the devotional has really hit me this week! So often I can get so consumed with just needing to read my bible and scripture to be spending God but in "Meditating to encounter the Living Word, Jesus Himself," I've experienced just that!

God has been prying at my heart strings as I sit with Him and listen to His voice. I feel like as Miquela wrote last week with it being hard to pray sometimes for fear of what God may say and do in our lives, it can be even harder to just sit with Him. Because when you sit with Him He goes for your heart!

In sitting with God this last week and allowing Him to dig deeper He has brought up some really difficult things from my past with loosing my mom and other people in my life. My first instinct when this happened and was forced to face this pain that I've been numb to for so long was to run...... but God was and still is beckoning for me to let Him in so that He can heal me and give me a greater capacity to love.

What I mean by greater capacity to love is that it's like 80% of my heart is available to Him and to anyone else for that matter because of this hardened heart. While the whole 80% that I have available is given to my Pursuer in our Risen Lord, He is jealous for that other 20% that is unavailable because of this closed off part of me. It's like that song says, "You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours." But I know that as Jesus Culture sings, "even though there is pain in the night His joy comes in the morning."

If anything the thing that has stuck me the most is that the creator of the universe longs for me in such a way that He wants to heal me from all of that pain. In chipping away at all that crap on my heart and drawing me nearer to Him, I am in turn then able to give away that love for others. If I've given 100% of my heart to my creator then I'm able to give away that 100% as well.

I don't know if this makes sense to you guys and I know my thoughts are all over the place! But oh my gosh you guys God really is that Living Water ("Let anyone who is thirsty come to me and drink. WHoever believes in me, as scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.") Just as water provides life to all things, Christ is saying He is the provider of life to all of creation!! So good!! : )

Anyways you guys are awesome!! Hope you week is going well!! : )

"Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person and they with me." Revelation 3:20

Open the door for your Pursuer because He longs for our hearts and wants to shower us with His unfailing love... <3