First Love

I know it is Monday, and we started meditation today( which is rad!), but this weekend I had one of those slap in the face moments, and have been processing through it. So sorry for the late entry on prayer but here it is:

These last couple of months have been months of growing, stretching, and testing. I have been so eager to learn as much as possible about God. As well as different denominations of the Christian Church(specifically in worship). As I was gathering up as much info as I could, I also started going through a book called " Discipleship on the Edge" which is a book that goes through the book of revelation. The author spent time explaining the letters that were written to the seven churches. In one of the chapters he talks about the Church in Ephesus, which if you have forgotten is a church that is thriving, and advancing the kingdom of Christ, and God affirms them in that. But God also calls them out on something, He tells them that they have " Forgotten Their First Love"

I finished that chapter and thought nothing of it except " oh just a bunch of people that are just going against God again". Little did I know, that, that church was a metaphor for my life. And then it really started hitting me, that for the last month or so, I have been so focused on knowing ABOUT God, that I forgot what first love was all about. There is a difference between knowing about God and actually personally knowing Him. How could I be so blind to have not even realized or forgotten the difference stated above. As I was processing this with God, and admitting this to God, he simply replied back and said "my son I love you and know you, I want you to know about me, but more importantly I want you to know me personally."