Let go and let God

So this gonna be really jumbled just a heads up =]
Reading this devo seriously has kind of wrecked my view on prayer.
"I sometimes imagine prayer as inhaling and exhaling and exhaling and inhaling. The repetition of the words inhaling and exhaling remind me of the ongoing, eternal presence of God. The repetition pushed me to hear, see, and feel that in deed 'in him we live, move, and have our being.' In other words, God is speaking in a bullion different ways in every place and at all times."

This constant breathing is a necessity. I mean last time I checked I kind of need to breathe. Just like breathing I need prayer. I need to be in constant communication with our Father. Pursuing his will and constantly talking to Him. However, I think that sometimes, much like Steph Fry, I stop praying because I'm trying to avoid God's plan for me. Im scared of what he might challenge me with next. So thinking about this I asked God to make me trust Him, to basically wreck my life. Let me tell you, if you pray this prayer, be prepared. God totally came through and presented a few obstacles. I think that with a few of them I probably failed in trusting Him at first but in one in particular I literally just yelled at Him and told HIm I didn't know what He wanted me to do.
I feel silly now sitting here telling you this. I mean yelling at the creator of the world. oh jeez. anyways.
God totally revealed a little piece of his plan to me. AND IT WAS AWESOME.

Then this last friday I went to Cal poly's Intervarsity and the speaker talked about the kingdom of God. How it is in us all of the time not just some of the time. That in order to keep it growing in us we need to be in unison with God. constantly pursuing Him. Praying.
THEN the speaker said this simple line "Let go and Let God"
I think going into this summer this is something I'm going to challenge myself with. Let go of all expectations, all pride, all of me and let God take control, let God wreck me all of me, let God change campers lives knowing that I can't change them without Him, let God WORK!

Anyways, I love you all and am praying for you all =]]]]