Meditating, oh boy. Meditation for me is removing myself from everything i deal with during the week.
During the week i was totally exhausted/drained. and the devil totally used that against me. I overslept alarms in the morning and was toasted at night. due to that i was not in the word at all. But Saturday i was able to wake up and have energy. Knowin myself i had to get out of dodge. So i went and did some meditaiting. This took the form of snowshoeing. So despite being exhuasted during the week God gave me the energy to go up.
Stage set.
God used that trip to talk to me in ways that still just blow my mind.
First off God showed that i couldnt do it alone. i had to be in the word, i had to be with him. he gave me the energy to go and be with him that day. so good.
Second, decided to climb a hill to get to an upper road instead of walking up to it along the road merely due to boredom. So up a steep hill i go. This turned into a one step forward two steps back scenario. not until i got to the top did God slap me with it. God points to it and says that hill, thats your life, you can go up as fast or as slow as you want but without Me you are gonna slip and slide down. i slid down a few times. but goin back up i was able to see where i slipped and where my footholds were. At the top i looked down i saw what i had overcome and though it had seemed like a challenge it could be done. Though life looks bleak and dark there is still hope there is still a way up that slippery slope. and its with God! So Good.
As i got higher up i stopped for lunch, sat on a boulder next to a washout. few seconds after i sit down a chunk of the hill next to me crumbles which caught me off guard. and my first thought is oh snap there is something above on the hill side.probably a cougar. After sittin there in dead silence for a few seconds i resume eating. not a big deal. until after i got back on track God again hits me. Though everything around me is crumbling and falling away it would not have moved the rock i was sitting on. God is that Rock and though my life is goin down the drain he is my Rock and cannot be moved. and all i have to do it cling to him and he will keep me safe. The silence while listening was a sincere quietness, one that i had not experienced in a long time. The wind wasnt even blowing. But God was in that silence. That rock slide made me concentrate on the silence. In the same way i have to concentrate on the Lord and just listen.
Farther up when i was closer to the top i was on the back side of the valley the wind picked up quite a bit. I looked west toward the ridgeline and saw dark clouds rolling in. I was well away from where i had left my heavy coat and even farther from my motorcycle. and i was not in the mood for rain. was able to get to a high point and call home for a weather report, turns out it was just haze coming off the bay. God showed me that I was in a tight spot with a long and possibly wet trek back. However my dad knew what was really coming, this gave me peace about my place and allowed me to push on. In the same way God showed me that he has a plan Romans 8:28 and that though i looks bad He truly knows what is going on and that i dont have to worry about it but only trust in him. and that if i do have any doubt that i can reach out to him and he will reveal the light in the darkness. I found this crazy since my old man is not a believer but God still used him to teach me.
On the final 1/4 mile i lost all sight of the road i was following. it was hidden under bout 20 ft of snow. So i had to make my own path which made it interesting. But i could see the top and thats what kept me on track and moving forward. Once again God spoke. I couldnt see my path but i knew where i was headed, i could see the top, i could see the light. I didnt know my path but i knew where i had to go and what i had to follow. Though i may be off track God will always guide me back to him.
At the top God totally blessed me with an awesome view. one that no camera could do justice or words could express. At the top i experienced total peace. Though my week was hectic and exhausting God brought me close to him and wrapped me in his arms if only for a few hours.
That was my meditation. God taught me so many lessons though i had barely spoke with him the entire day or the entire week for that matter. Though i felt distant from God he was with me the whole time.
This was an afternoon of silence with God. I cannot begin to fathom what an eternity will be like So Good.
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