Study!

"No servant can serve two masters.  Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other."

So who is my master?  What do I spend all my time and energy towards?  What am I really all about?  Sometimes God wouldn't be my answer.  Sometimes I would say school.  Far too much of my life is based on that, even now.  I do pour 'tons of energy and life' on school.  As a freshman coming into the program I was given advice left and right on how to go through college, and probably the best advice that I was given was from my friend Ryan, who told me, "Engineering is fantastic, for a lot of reasons.  You are going to have to word harder than you thought you were able to.  But never let it take precedence over God, because that's when you start losin' it."

Stef I loved rereading your post, and the part about being worn down and burned out with study rings true to me.  For me, I think the burnout comes from thinking that how well I do in school actually means something.  But it doesn't change anything.  Success doesn't free me.  School doesn't free me.  Jesus does.  That Luke verse keeps coming to mind:

"...You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you.  Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?  This is how it will be with anyone who stores up things for himself but is not rich toward God."

I don't know if this is making sense, I'm sort of just going for it.  I just want so badly that when I die, not to hear, "well congrats, you an awesome chem engineer, so what?" but rather, "well done good and faithful servant, you were faithful with what I gave you, now lets celebrate". And where do I learn to become this servant?  From studying truth given by the ultimate servant.  (Spoiler: it's Jesus).  How do I learn to love unconditionally?  From God, who loves me unconditionally.