Study.... Study.. Study

Hey Friends!
Alrighty, I apologize for how skatter-brained this is about to sound but I hope that my words and thoughts still make sense.
I will be the first to admit that I cling to old destructive habits of thinking. I find it so hard to move from the familiar to something new despite the promise of a better outcome, so... two sentences into this week and it was already kicking me in the stomach. I confess that instead of applying my mind to things that will transform it, I mostly focus on 1. the things I need to get done by tonight 2. my fears of the future and unknown 3. friends and boys and 4. how I just failed to live in light of the Gospel in the situation that just happened. Wow, that was hard to write, and I really want to delete what I just wrote because it is the ugly truth of my heart right now. But, for the sake of being vulnerable, I won't. I am just so struck this past week that the things I am studying are not things that will transform me, instead they are things that I need to let go of and give to God. I was really hit with what Stef said "its not how much you study, but what you are studying".... As a pre-nursing student I always feel like my countless hours put in at the library with my Organic Chemistry textbook will bring me joy and satisfaction from a high test score. This week I managed to change my focus from studying o-chem to studying it by looking at the Creator of it all. Friends, it was wonderful. To sit back and realize that the God I am in an intimate relationship with created alpha 1,4 glycosidic  bonds was awesome. My prayer for all of you with the anticipation of summer, is not that we would be focusing on studying the way a houseboat works, or the proper way to hang out with campers, but that we would study the one who CREATED houseboats and the amazing mystery that is campers! And from this look at houseboats and campers through the lens of our God. How cool is it that studying can be an act of worship?! I pray that we all realize it is not how much we study, but who we study (thank you so much Stef for that prospective shift).
Your Sister,
Haley