STUDY

I felt really convicted reading this passage about study. I'm definitely one of those peope who tries to be free with "good feelings, ecstatic experiences, and getting "high on Jesus". And that's what I'll pray to him throughout the day for. I'll ask for 100% fulfilling confidence, excitement, energy, peace, etc. Because I falsely expect that, as Christians, that's what we're supposed to be feeling 24/7. Then, I just end up disappointed and frustrated because I'm not feeling totally happy and content.

It's so true though that filling up on God's Word is what sets you free. I trade-off my potential time with God for sleep, showering and getting ready, friends, etc. And then I selfishly ask and expect him to shower me with peace. I expect Him to still put his truth at the tip of my tongue, ready to pour out on people. Even though I didn't take the time to prepare my mind for that by filling up on His Word. By being discipline.

That's where this line hit me hard:
"Overnight we find ourselves pouring out a ton of energy and life on things that are not the will of God. Kicking and screaming we demand rights that we do not have as a slave to Jesus Christ."

I EXPECT God to fill me up with comfort and all-surpassing confidence. To fill me up with the ability to live as a light for him and minister to others and lift them up constantly. When:
A) I don't have a right to those constant things. God does the work, not me. He'll use me if He so desires, but I don't control that. I don't have a right to how and when I will be used. I AM a slave to Jesus Christ.
B) I haven't taken the time to STUDY. To be discipline and take the time to learn more about the truth. How can I expect to be free?
C) (Sidenote:) Why am I asking for confidence? I'm supposed to be embracing my insecurities here, showing people that I am weak but God still uses the little I have for HUGE things.


Spending time studying and worshiping God is what brings you true rest, what puts your spirit at peace and makes you FREE. Focusing on and filled up with truths on the right way to live for God. Instead of drifting through life in bondage to your fears and anxieties, ignorant and naive.