"you are my friends and I love you"

Oh man friends! God has hit me with so so much this week. I am giving you all two big heads up here. 1 I am not a writer, I'm a science major for a reason and 2 most of the time my thoughts are super random and hard to follow.
"the slave king"
I am just going to lead you guys through the notes I made to myself and essentially retype my journal here. When Peter and Matthew are arguing about who is the slave, I just really reflected my heart for service. In my room at school we play this game all the time, the dishes need to be done, the room needs vacuuming, the trash needs to be taken out... And the response from all of us "I'm not the room slave, you made the mess". God has really been bringing me to a place that reflects the later lines, "I do this because I love you". And "you are
My friends and I love you".
I apologize for not highlighting the rest of the reading, I have millions of notes in the margin, but in reading back over them this part of the slave king hoot me most.
For those who know me, I'm a crier... Sometimes it's good, most times it's embarrassing. By the end of this page when Jesus says " my heart will tear apart- and yours will heal" I was basically balling my eyes out. The part that hit me most was they went to their favorite place and sang their favorite song.
This just left me with this image of me and Jesus spending our last day together. Where would I take Him? What would we do and what would we sing?
I think the thing that struck me most was the intimacy here, they had a song, they had a place; just like me and my best friends do! I have been on this really difficult journey lately of finding my authentic self rather than the person who I feel situations create me to be. It just hit me, does Jesus know me as a friend well enough to have a song with me or a place with me.


I hope that my scattered brain can mean something for one of you.
Have a beautiful Easter everyone!
HE IS RISEN!!!
Love,
Haley