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Meditation.

I know this is super late but God has just been wrecking my life with this stuff the past week.

I feel like often I read my Bible and pray and then call it good. 

There is a small verse that is so simple but so hard. "Be still and know that I am God."

Be still and trust. Be still and be in His presence. Be stil and know that his plans are bigger than mine.

Be still. Why is that so hard?

Why do I always DO? Why can't I just be?

God made us to dwell in His presence, to meditate on him, to keep our eyes focused on Him.

Foster puts it perfectly "Does resting in the grace and mercy of the Father result in idleness? Hardly, 'often meditation will yield insights that are deeply practical, almost mundane.'" This simple question and answer made me realize that I hate sitting still. I don't like being still but when I do God uses that vulnerability in me to reveal so much. 

This week during the madness of appointments and tests I definitely didn't meditate, Im gonna be completely honest. I struggled to just sit in God's presence. I am continuing to struggle. I think that's why I hesitated to blog about this. I don't like admitting that I am struggling. But in this struggle God is totally wrecking me. He is challenging me to be still and BE. 

Now as I pray for the summer I am continually asking God to remind me to BE. To BE his daughter, to BE his servant and to BE in his presence.
Surrounded by the craziness of banana boating, wake-boarding, playing dibble dabble, program, worshipping, and everything else that goes on on the water, I want to challenge myself to check my motivations and check where my eyes are at all times. Am I focused on doing and representing myself in a good light? Or am I representing a servant of God and being?

I love you guys so much and am praying for you all!!

Good luck with midterms and finals 

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